Truths

I have always kept thoughts to myself, while often brutally honest I have a hard time saying/doing things that will hurt others or put myself at risk(emotionally vulnerable). Yet sometimes it’s hard to not state what I think. Here are some of my thoughts to some of the people that I interact with.
If you have sexted or made actual plans to cheat, you are a cheater; even if you never played I put my dick in it. Don’t try to cover it up with pretty words and insignificant justifications. You don’t love your wife nearly as much as you claim to. If you did, you wouldn’t think with your dick. You have already betrayed her. Someday she is going to find out what type of person you are, best be prepared.
I dislike you, and have no clue why I continue to talk to you. You bring drama to my life, which I don’t need. You remind me of things best left buried in the closet. You don’t know me, even though you pretend to. You use me, even though you say you are not. You have nothing useful to offer me; I’m done with this whole thing.
I’m really confused by you. I don’t get what is going on. I have tried to just go with the flow, but the thing is, I think I could fall for you. And I’m trying hard not to. I don’t know if you like me, in that way. I don’t know that you are willing to catch me if I fall. Yet sometimes I think you would. You make me laugh, and you make me feel safe. I think I could tell my secrets to you. Yet I won’t, you confuse me, I don’t know if I can trust you. I don’t know what this is, and I’m too scared to ask.
Your children learn from watching you. If you are mean to them, they will be mean to you. If you ignore them, they will ignore you. If you beat them, they will abuse you. They will learn from you, so if you don’t like how they are, then change how you are. End of story.
If you wanted to be here, you would be here. Stop making excuses.
I miss you, every day. I miss talking with you, laughing with you, hanging out with you trips, I miss our inside jokes, I miss our randomness, I miss existing with you. I miss the fact that you knew me, understood me, and loved me. I miss the way you would look at me, and the way you would tease me, and the way I could be me around you. I miss your humor, and your smile, I miss your strength and your gentleness. If there is anything in my life I could change, it is the one night that ruined it. If I could figure out how to undo what has been done, I would. It makes me sad that we can’t figure out a way to move forward.
You wonder why I don’t share with you, let me clue you in. It is because when I needed you, you weren’t there. You called on me to help you time and time again, yet never had time to listen to me. So no, I don’t trust you, and I’m not going to turn to you when I need help.
You are settling and you know it. You are afraid of being alone, so you are clinging to whatever comes your way. You are never going to find happiness that way. If you love her, then stop looking for someone ‘better’ to come along. If you sincerely think there is someone better out there, then leave her. You are